I once saw a hatted man
Tell me not to take a bet
And you can be sure that I’m sure
It hasn’t even happened yet
I can read the future
One more room to torture
me
One more flight of stairs
I’m sure you’ll kick me down there
Can you remember December
When Jen and Danny made it better for me?
Just a knife and a taser
Like a childhood spent watching Frasier
Cuz this was just too normal for me.
Do you remember remember
The abuse at your side
When your dad fucked you
Instead of being your guide?
And they all loved your thighs
And you stayed by his side
Because he was better than your mother.
And you’re so horny for each other
But you can’t stay in a corner for all time.
So you watch the old movies
Where men were being men
And children were happy–
Not fucked.
And you’re wondering
If Hera was to Zeus
The other way around
And he was
Cucked.
I wonder…
And we saw Marlon sing
And then we enjoyed caroling
Like christians we confessed
All of our sins
To a geriatric man
That once fucked boys
Instead of women
Cuz they suck.
It was Christmas that day
When she sent me away
To a world of pain
Like it was shock and dismay
That they didn’t take me away
Just sting after sting
I can’t explain it
It just felt like dying
But I never died
Just a taser and some scissors
To cut my flesh like incisions
My dad was helping
To make his wife happy
A little caroling to take the suffering away
Is all it will take to make these memories
Stay.
So that I remember
That 26th of December
When my confidence was gone
And I was finally garbage face
To my mom.
Thank you dad.
You were the best that I had.
I wish I was never born.
Those years would be gone.
My skin would never be torn.
I’d never spend my life all alone.
I’m glad I was born
This is me.
Scorned.
