When I was a little girl
I found a place inside my dreams
It was quite a fantasy
I stayed there for years it seems
Decorated the walls I built
Created memories
Made a mural of the friends I lost
Gained new enemies
I was not here for this new world
So I went back in my little mind
Saw that I once believed in love
Sought to be brave and always kind
I took a risk to make my dream
A fantastical reality
I took a risk to live my life
I lost my family
Thought I’d find my gold
Lost more dear old friends
Thought I’d find support
But only these dead ends
Love is what you believe in
Not what believes in you
Your belonging is not your worth
Or I’d be nothing without you
Now I know that looking back
Would only turn me stone
The rock I want holds the sword
That gives me access to my throne
I hope in the end
I won’t be so alone
But I’m not interested in power
Just a love that’s all my own
And if i reach the finish line
But no one sees me cross
I’ll know I will be happy
Even with the loss.
Listen to your heart
It won’t steer you wrong
Listen to your heart
For there you will belong
And if I’m the only one who believes in love
So be it.
I’d rather die in love with life
Then be so full of shit.
When I Was a Little Girl
