i had a dream
but it was real
i met you last month
and you said,
don’t worry about her
“she’s just there.
what about you and me?”
and i was like what?
this is a difficult show
full of “i don’t know”
full of “alyssa who you talking too”
full of “now they all want to fuck you”
but lets see if you’re serious.
by the way,
they all want to fuck you.
so then we wondered more,
just me and them
the girls i knew once
and the adventures we went on
could have, would have, should have
known you better
back then
but i was a fool
who let it all go.
and now all i have is
this nothing tale of a boy meets girl
wondering if it’s something worth anything–
and yet, it’s everything.
this wasn’t real
what it all was
when i was one month
and you said,
“lets not worry about this now
we’re just here
like an existential crisis.”
and i was like what?
this is my only remaining show
full of “i don’t know”
full of “they’re all gonna fuck us”
but lets see if they let me die.
they won’t, they just live
to see us cry.
so then we wondered more
just me and them
the girls i know now
and the adventures we will go on
could have, would have, should have
known you better
back then, but now–
i ain’t no fool
who will let it all go.
but still all i have is
this nothing tale of a boy meets girl
wondering if it’s something worth anything–
and yet, it’s everything.
just a story of boy meets girl
in two different plant cells
a universe beyond
and a universe beyond that one.
and we think we know everything
we thought we could
but we didn’t know a thing.
i don’t want to forget this time.
not this time
with you i do, or die
and they won’t let me,
so we cry.
with you i do, or die
and they won’t let us,
so we fly.
i had a dream
but it was real
i met you last month
and you said,
don’t worry about her
“she’s just there.
what about you and me?”
and i was like what?
this is a difficult show
full of “i don’t know”
full of “they’re all gonna fuck us
but lets see if they’re serious.”
i’m fucking serious
i fucking love you.
do you?
(i think you do)
(For Aaron Paul in 2020)