i used to call my bear
“teddy bear”
and cry with my arms around it
do you remember that?
i used to call you my
teddy bear,
and cry with my arms around my pillow.
do you remember that?
did you witness it?
i used to call you all year
and hang up the phone
cuz i remembered your
voice that way.
you didn’t know it was me
and this is crazy you see
because that
totally wasn’t me
it was bea.
and me.
we used to do it together.
it was a lot.
but it brought us closer together
so thank you.
forever.
i love you ted.
i wanted you in my bed
if i even knew what that was…
i used to call you,
my dear,
teddy bear.
and cry with my arms around myself
as i watched you with someone else
in high school.
i was a fool–
for you
do you remember that?
