i was just watching a movie
when suddenly
you were sitting right next to me
i said hi
you gave me butterflies
we shared stories
and jumped off quarries
i was trying to picture
you on top of me
then unfortunately,
interrupted by an atrocity
and you had to go right when
i was hoping
you would come home to get me
but you had a real life
outside of my head
and left to marry
someone who wasn’t pretty
and wasn’t me, instead
i got sad and i cried
but had to lose
my preoccupation
with you
to get myself back into
this public intoxication
without you
this toxic humiliation
with you
what i’m really trying to say is:
you have green eyes
and blonde hair
and your soul is on fire
and your arms are like tires
and all the girls you know are liars
and you run through my mind
i hope you never get tired
i wish the internet was real
but just like the idea
of you in my arms
and the idea of you
knowing about this song
the only real thing is
the way that you feel
so, everything i say now
is about you.
and all the things you do
are really cute
and i really like you.
i was thinking about you
and my past came in
he told me to stop
dragging him in
to my shit
but i couldn’t stop,
when it hit
i said,
“what do you think about
podcasting
and fake dj’s
and this
professional wrestler
who’s also a boxer
and boys who are alphas?”
and he got jealous
said “you probably like him”
and i said,
“i do and
i would tell him
that i think he is handsome,
but our future looks grim
and i’m not allowed to meet him.”
i got sad and i cried
but had to lose
my preoccupation
with you
to get myself back into
this public intoxication
without you
this toxic humiliation
with you
what i’m really trying to say is:
you have green eyes
and blonde hair
and your soul is on fire
and your arms are like tires
and all the girls you know are liars
and you run through my mind
i hope you never get tired
i wish the internet was real
but just like the idea
of you in my arms
and the idea of you
knowing about this song
the only real thing is
the way that you feel
so, everything i say now
is about you.
and all the things you do
are really cute
and i really like you.
so if i could, i might say
that i’ve been wondering if you
liked my eyes
or maybe my thighs
knowing you can’t try
to save me from this hell i’m in
currently just
sitting in my bathroom and
getting naked in the shower
while other people watch me
counting the hours
until the day that i can get
the fuck out of here
and on some better shit
when it hit
you have green eyes
and blonde hair
and your soul is on fire
and your arms are like tires
and all the girls you know are liars
and you run through my mind
i hope you never get tired
i wish the internet was real
but just like the idea
of you in my arms
and the idea of you
knowing about this song
the only real thing is
the way that you feel
so, everything i say now
is about you.
and all the things you do
are really cute
and i really like you.
(with logan circa 2022)
